i wish that i could see
through your eyes i’d
maybe understand

you pick me apart
and put me back again
pulled by paper thin strings 
that are under my skin

falling, waiting
building myself up again
it’s been too far along now holding onto something gone

watching ripples of your coat
fold the harder you hold
my head is spinning with desire
ignoring ways you’re cold

there’s no there’s no color
oh there’s no there’s no room inside

falling, waiting
building myself up again
it’s been too far along now
holding onto something gone

falling, waiting
building myself up again
it’s been too far along now
holding onto something gone

between the stacks in the library
not like anyone stopped to see
we came they went, our bodies spent
among the dust and the microfiche

dark winters wear you down
up again to see the dawn
in your worn sweatshirt
and your mother's old skirt
it's enough to turn my studies down

now that you feel, you say it's not real
now that you feel, you say it's not real

i never thought i would come of age
let alone on a moldy page
you put your back to the spines
and you said it was fine
if there's nothing really left to say

you're taking toffee with your vicodin
something sweet to forget about him

if you go your own way
i will go my own way
and we'll never speak of it again

now that you feel, you say it's not real
now that you feel, you say it's not real

don't check me out!

"an overpopulated city in a deserted country. a city in which thousands of buildings rise into the sky. arbitrarily. next to a tall one, a small one. next to a rational one, an irrational one. next to a french one, one with no style at all. these irregularities probably reflect us perfectly. aesthetic and ethical irregularities. these buildings, which adhere to no logic, represent bad planning. just like our lives: we have no idea how we want them to be."

i gave up
but where should i go from here?
you should
understand this, right?

all the things spilling out of you
tell me everything without holding back
i want to understand you
i want to understand you

as the window gradually starts to blur
i'll have to wake without making a sound
even if i reach out, it won't get through
surely, this must all be a dream

until my voice reaches you
i want to stay close to you
even if i lose my way way with words
so that i don't fade away
i'll leave behind a trace of myself

an unfamiliar park
letters i've never seen before
it reminded me of the things we gave up on
why can't i do this? i can't speak properly
you say i lose interest too quickly
shut up, idiot, i can't hear you
the way we fought hurt so much, but it also felt strangely fresh
just like the shadows swaying beneath the ceiling
i want to leave that all far, far behind

morning mist, hide in shadows
i'll give you the words you want
i'll give you the words you want

i can't smile anymore, but

i think it's best we go our separate ways

---

やめたって
どこに
向かえばいいのかな

君だって
わかっている筈でしょう

触れてたモノを
惜しまず教えてよ
知りたいよ
知りたいよ

だんだん窓が滲んで見えたら
音を立てずに起きなくちゃ
こんな触れても伝わらない
きっと、夢の中だろうな

声が届くまで
君の近くにいたいよ
僕が言葉を失っても
消えないように
しるしを残すのさ


知らない公園　
見たことない字で
やめた重なり合いのことを思い出したよ
どうしてできない？上手く喋れない
飽きっぽいんだって聞こえないよ馬鹿
争う会話が苦しくて、でも新鮮だ
天井下で揺れる影法師と同じ
そんなこともずっと、ずっと昔のことにして。


朝靄　hide in shadows
i'll give you the words you want
j'll give you the words you want

笑えないけど　さ

i think it's best we go our separate ways

bad luck never leaves
your jinx just floats around
like the taste inside your mouth
or the sound when your skull cracks
feel the growing pains
it means you're growing up too fast
telling white lies to black cats
stretch me out across the tracks

while you were sleeping, i was blood red
sharp as a knife inside your stomach
i'm squeezing tight, don't let the light in
no medicine

daydream tendencies
had you smiling soft and sweet
keep those blurry memories
somewhere safe, you may need them
you can make a wish
but there's no rabbit out the hat
realize it's never coming back
realize it's never coming back

while you were sleeping, i was blood red
sharp as a knife inside your stomach
i'm squeezing tight, don't let the light in
no medicine

don't let the light in
no medicine

"it's funny. suddenly, i don't know what to say. it happens to me a lot. i know what i want to say, i think first about whether they're the right words. but when the moment comes to speak, i can't say it."

"why must one always talk? often one shouldn't talk, but live in silence. the more one talks, the less the words mean."

 
alone by that sea
i remembered the summer when we were together
that sea where i'm alone
is completely different from the sea where we were together

"stay with me, forever"
"i'll be with you, forever"
it turned out to be a lie

we werе in a hurry to live, both of us
that movie we saw a long timе ago, became a reality

two shadows that no longer embraced eachother
it was sad to think that nothing could be done

you cried, i cried
the night cried, the stars cried
you cried, i cried
the night cried, the summer ended

---

一人で　あの海で
二人でいた　あの夏を思い出した
一人でいる　あの海は
二人でいた　あの海と全く違っていた

「一緒にいてね　いつまでも」
「一緒にいるよ　いつまでも」
嘘になった

生き急いでた　二人とも
昔見たあの映画　現実になった

もう寄り添わないふたつの影があった
どうしようもないって思うことが悲しかった

君が泣いて 僕が泣いて
夜が泣いて 星が泣いて
君が泣いて 僕が泣いて
夜が泣いて 夏が終わった

as i passed below the haloes of the green and red traffic signals, i was taken by this strange view of the evening, the city streets full of people — people waiting, the people they were waiting for, people out to eat together, people going somewhere together, people heading home together. i allowed my thoughts to settle on the brightness filling their hearts and lungs, squinting as i walked along and counted all the players of this game i would never play.

so much coming in
i do not know where to begin
i just follow the lead you're pulling
and i get lost in your trail
so much more to tell
you just ask me if i'm doing well
but i do not know what the hell
i just swallow hard

in your eyes
black diamonds
i could die
black diamonds
in your eyes
black diamonds
i could die
black diamonds
and i wake up in a cold sweat on your ceiling
terrified of what your love's revealing

so much you can see
should i let you make a woman of me?
should i let you take the mystery from me?
see the inside of my room at night?
sometimes you will find
things i do not know how to leave behind
i've been grappling with my mind
i've been stuck inside a jail

in your eyes
black diamonds
i could die
black diamonds
in your eyes
black diamonds
i could die
black diamonds
and i wake up in a cold sweat on your ceiling
terrified of what your love's revealing

the cold of winter warms my blood and he's hot
like a bed of steel
he finds his peace of mind
in the rivers and the whip-poor-wills
i could follow close behind
and slowly disappear
but i can never leave him
i can never leave him
i can never leave him
i can never leave him
i can never leave him
i can never leave him

in his eyes
black diamonds
i could die
and i wake up in a cold sweat on your ceiling
so much more to do
come on, let me make a man outta you
i could gather you and you tell the truth
you could cry inside my arms
you could cry inside my arms like a child
you could cry
you could cry

i love everything that's foamy, steamy.

scarves, headscarves. i press them against my cheek, they're soft.

the other day, he was watching me do it, and he said: "like a child."

i had to explain how the face works as a third hand. it's important, after all.

"and how would we shake hands using this third?" he asked.

"shake hands, hmm...?"

it didn't take me long. though the solution that came to me was embarrassing.

i bit my lips. he clicked his boots three times. he does that when he's proud of himself. it's something i know.

isn't it so lovely to be in each other's dreams?
we're in each other's future too

take me to a new home
i'd like nothing more than to make it with you
let's go inside and close our doors
and stay in bed all morning

i have had a vision of paradise
and you're playing the piano there
a little boy with curly hair

you take me in your arms
with that look in your eyes
that tells me that you're coming to me
tells me that you're staying
that it's not only a dream we're in
tells me that we're under no spell
that this is the way we feel
this is just the way
this is just the way we feel

seeing you in the morning is a motivation
it really gets me going
it makes me wanna shine
makes me wanna be yours
makes me wanna be mine

what moon songs
do you sing your babies?
what sunshine do you bring?

who belongs
who decides who's crazy
who rights wrongs where others cling?

i'll sing for you
if you want me to
i'll give to you
and it's a chance i'll have to take
and it's a chance i'll have to break

i go along
just because i'm lazy
i go along to be with you

and those moon songs
that you sing your babies
will be the songs to see you through

i'll hear your song
if you want me to
i'll sing along
and it's a chance i'll have to take
and it's a chance i'll have to break

i'm in love with you
i'm in love with you
i'm in love with you and you

i'm in love with you (so in love)
i'm in love with you (with you)
i'm in love with you and you

i'm in love with you (so in love)
i'm in love with you (i'm so in love)
i'm in love with you and you